Wow. Exactly 7 months to the day since my last post. I decided to take a break from blogging and have realized - I miss it. Something about processing my thoughts and putting them out here in the universe is helpful. So here I am again.
The past year hasn't been the most stellar year in regards to my health - about a year ago is when I was diagnosed with A-fib and then a slew of medications, heart procedures, EKGs, cardiologist appointments, etc. I am down to only 1 heart pill a day (YAY!) which is a huge improvement. And I am hopeful that at my next follow up in June, I will be off everything. I have a lot of work to do between now and then though because.....
I have used the past year as a huge excuse to feel sorry for myself. To stop running regularly. To eat pretty much whatever I wanted. To drink ALL the wine...and I do mean all of it.
So stupid as you would think a-fib would have been a wake up call & made me want to get super healthy! But.... the side effects of the meds were not pleasant & became a major obstacle for me. I felt sluggish, irritable, bloated, depressed and just angry that this was happening at 42. Anyway... all of that combined with normal work, family & life stress just equated to a year of excess. Coping in all the wrong ways.
So - new year, new me bullshit - I joined Weight Watchers again in January to get a grip....start tracking my food intake, focus on healthy eating & get my ass up and moving. It is so interesting to me to see diet trends now of super high protein, high fat, no carb, no sugar, etc but.... none of that really works for me. Hey if it works for you - you do you boo but - I need a plan that is realistic and sustainable. I will never give up wine 100%, I will always want to have a cupcake here or there, no sorry cauliflower is NOT pizza crust and damn - tacos are life. So...weight watchers works for me.
That being said - my first couple of week have been challenging. I have really stayed the course and have been tracking all my food, eating lots of veggies & lean protein and exercising. I am not back to running yet... mainly as it has been subzero temperatures until yesterday but... I have been on the elliptical. I know I need to incorporate weights again so - did that yesterday. Yes, it hurts to move my arms today. All of this is good but... progress on the scale has been SLOW. Like painfully slow. Like - I've lost 2 lbs slow. Ugh.
Very frustrating and I am making every effort to not compare my journey now to my 20's or early 30's when I could eat turkey sandwiches for a week and lose 8 lbs. I know this will take time, consistency and perseverance. And I just need to have patience with the process...and myself.
I am going to blog more as I think putting this shit out here helps me to stay motivated and accountable. And I really do miss it.... feels good to be writing again :) More to come as I am going to make it a habit to blog here often. Wish me luck on my journey.... it is always appreciated :)
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