Two weeks ago yesterday, I had my cardiac catheter ablation. Yes, it is just as awful as it sounds. Ha! Seriously, it really was not so bad and....a necessary evil to get where i want. I am currently taking 6 pills a day to keep my heartbeat in check thanks to my atrial fibrillation and that is not where I want to be. The side effects from my current medication - tiredness, lightheaded, dizzy, headaches, fluid retention, severe lack of focus and energy - so you get it, feeling like crud in general on the regular. I am a barrel of laughs most days let me tell you.
So - in theory - the ablation cauterizes the heart tissue that is causing my heart to misfire and if all goes as planned i will be weaned off my meds here over the next few months. I am hope hope hoping like crazy that is what the outcome is.
I decided to not tell many people about it - mainly as i did not want to concern my parents unnecessarily. One of the weird things about my current condition is that the rest of me is completely healthy (thank god). All my blood work has been near perfect. No blockages or heart issues. Cholesterol is perfect. Blood pressure is always spot on. But....still have that irregular heartbeat. They are not sure what is causing it. So after much consideration - and deciding I absolutely did NOT want to take medication the rest of my life to sorta kinda control my heartbeat - I decided to move forward with the ablation.... mind you this was after lots of research, questions, running all this by my physician friend, and talks with Chad. I can now say 2 weeks out that I am glad I did it and I am really trying to not wish away the next 2.5 months!
After an ablation it takes a few months to verify that it actually worked. I am wearing a heart rate monitor now (and for the next 27 days) that has electrodes hooked up to me, with a monitor and a cell phone that records my heartbeat. So far... this has been the worst part! I hate having all these wires under my clothes and the cell phone will randomly beep. The electrodes are the worst.... i have four attached to me - two of which go right under my bra underwire - and holy hell is that uncomfortable. Very frustrating and is putting me in a generally grump ass mood. Thank goodness my husband and my coworkers have a good sense of humor and can deal with me bitching and complaining most days about my current situation. But... I also know this is temporary and a necessary means to and end so...that helps. Big picture this is small potatoes.
I have noticed that the past 2 days I have been pretty exhausted. I wake up tired and feeling like I could sleep 8 more hours. Maybe I am not sleeping well with this damn HR monitor on? Or maybe now that my heart is working properly these meds are really effecting me? I don't know. I also was in Dallas for a few days last week for business and it was a pretty busy trip so - could just be exhausted from that still. Hoping I can really get some quality sleep this weekend and - looking forward to 4th of July long weekend.
One funny thing that has happened - yesterday I had to leave work a little early as this was my first day at work wearing the HR monitor and I realize it is about to die and I left the charger at home. Frick - not good. So I leave work to head home, zipping down the highway on my merrily way home, my mind a million miles away....until....blue lights behind me! I pull my car over while cursing at the time of my lungs.....
Officer: "M'am, I pulled you over going in 78 in a 60mph zone...any reason you were driving so fast?"
Me: .... I just looked at him, pulling my shirt slightly down so he could see my wires and electrodes with flashing lights, bells and whistles and explain "Sir, I am headed home as my HR monitor is about to die and I need to charge it before---"
Officer: he puts his hands up and says "M'am....as far as excuses go, that is a pretty damn good one. Please slow down and get home safe. I don't need to delay you any further"
Moral of the story.... I'm keeping this damn HR monitor in my car for driving purposes after these 30 days are up! No more speeding tickets for this girl ;) I am hoping the next 27 days fly by and i get good news at my next dr apt... as in YES I can start decreasing the meds. Please think of me and send healing vibes my way - much needed and much appreciated!
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Saturday, May 13, 2017
Whole30ing Along....
I took a bit of a break from blogging & have realized that I have missed it! It's therapeutic to be able to put my thoughts out there and just file them away. It's also cool to look back every now and then and see exactly what you were up to 1 month, 6 months, 1 year ago....like a more in depth Timehop :)
Anyway.... to my three readers out there..... did you miss me? I missed you & I'm back!
A few weeks ago....3 weeks on Monday to be exact...I started Whole30. Today is Day 20. Twenty days with no sugar, no alcohol, no dairy and no grains. Wow that's a lot. It's even more crazy when you realize that SUGAR IS IN EVERYTHING! Seriously... I thought a lot of the choices I was making food-wise were pretty "healthy" but when I started reading the ingredients list on things that I consume on a daily basis....it was shocking. My beloved sweet italian cream coffer creamer....holy chemical shitstorm. The sugar-free chewing gum that I pretty much constantly chewed all day long? What the fuck is all that junk in there?? Why am I chewing on fruit-flavored chemicals all day? Even simple things that you wouldn't even consider to have sugar in it...say Chili Power....it's in there! Crazy. Start reading labels people. It's an eye opener.
So I know what you are thinking....what the hell do you eat? If you can't drink booze, or eat cheese, no yogurt, no sugar, no artificial shit, no rice, no pasta, no bread..... F that! I am pretty sure those were my exact thoughts when I researched Whole30 about 6 months ago. As soon as I read no wine for 30 days... i was thinking "F that". But a friend a work started doing it and had awesome results - not just physically but also mentally, emotionally, etc. And I was intrigued. She kept saying "if I can do this...you can too". I figured what the hell....let me give this a whirl. And here I am at Day 20.
diet eating plan is focused on consuming whole, clean foods with lots of protein and healthy fats. I can eat fruit as it is natural and clean. I can eat pretty much any meat. Bacon is fine on the side as long as it has zero sugar. Note that sugar free bacon is hard to find and expensive as fuck but...oh so worth it :) Eggs are my new BFF. Guacamole is my homeboy. Kombucha is my ride or die bitch. I have mastered the art of making homemade mayonnaise. Veggies are my new lifeblood. Coconut milk is the nectar of the gods and tastes amazing in eggs (seriously that just sounds gross but try it - it's amazing). Ghee (which is just clarified butter) is SO good but also very expensive...my hubs made mine for me :) Oh and I can eat potatoes... sweet, white and red...although I have been trying to keep the white potatoes to a weekend fling as I tend to go a bit cray cray with potatoes.
Not sure if you caught this above so let me repeat...NO ALCOHOL PEOPLE! That has been a doozy for me and really the biggest hurdle considering wine flows through my veins. Not gonna lie...I cannot wait to have a glass of pinot grigio. Cannot. Wait. But... it has also been nice to take a break. Keeping it real here....wine had become my go to the past year for pretty much every emotion.
Happy? Let's celebrate with a bottle!
Stressful day at work? Let me numb out with some vino.
Sad about the muffin top explosion over my skinny jeans? Wine to the rescue.
Girls night out? I will take 2 bottles please, yes I said 2 and yes they are both for me. F off and thank you.
The weather is above 60 degrees? Patio Grigio!
Oh it's Tuesday you say? Pop the bubbly.
You get the idea. My wine intake was becoming a bit of a bad habit. I was up for the challenge of no alcohol for 30 days but, not going to lie I was a bit skeptical if I could do it. Happy to report that so far... so good. I have discovered Kombucha which is fermented tea and tastes a lot like a sour beer. It is "compliant" on Whole30 as it has a ton of probiotics & healthy shit in there for you. There is some sugar but it is used in the fermentation process so... it's cool (and don't think I haven't tried to justify in my head that should mean that wine is ok too as it is just some fermented grapes & sugar....but i digress). It has been nice to take a break and realize maybe I don't need wine rehab just yet.
I have been spending a lot of time in the kitchen but...I was doing that already. I love to cook & meal prep so I think that has helped make the past 20 days a bit easier. I also love pretty much all veggies & love to try new things. If you don't like to cook or, if you have a life where you travel a lot or are on the go a lot - I think it would be a bit more challenging. But so far... it really has not been too bad. It also helps that my hubs has been very supportive and for the most part has been a good sport about trying new dishes & eating more veggies (mushroom pork meatballs - I'm talking about you). We have only been out to eat twice in the past 20 days. That is HUGE for us as we live in a neighborhood with tons of bars and restaurants within walking distance and.... we both LOVE to indulge in said bars and restaurants. It has been nice to step back and get some perspective. It's not a good idea for MANY reasons to eat out pretty much Thursday through Sunday. It's been fun hanging at home together more....and better on the bank account too.
So there you have it.... my life the past 20 days has basically been broccoli, eggs, reading food labels, cooking and chopping up shit & relaxing with Kombucha. Hippy Dippy. And i think i kinda love it! More on my Whole30 adventure, my ongoing love/hate affair with running & my possible venture into Kombucha home brewing to come.....
Anyway.... to my three readers out there..... did you miss me? I missed you & I'm back!
A few weeks ago....3 weeks on Monday to be exact...I started Whole30. Today is Day 20. Twenty days with no sugar, no alcohol, no dairy and no grains. Wow that's a lot. It's even more crazy when you realize that SUGAR IS IN EVERYTHING! Seriously... I thought a lot of the choices I was making food-wise were pretty "healthy" but when I started reading the ingredients list on things that I consume on a daily basis....it was shocking. My beloved sweet italian cream coffer creamer....holy chemical shitstorm. The sugar-free chewing gum that I pretty much constantly chewed all day long? What the fuck is all that junk in there?? Why am I chewing on fruit-flavored chemicals all day? Even simple things that you wouldn't even consider to have sugar in it...say Chili Power....it's in there! Crazy. Start reading labels people. It's an eye opener.
So I know what you are thinking....what the hell do you eat? If you can't drink booze, or eat cheese, no yogurt, no sugar, no artificial shit, no rice, no pasta, no bread..... F that! I am pretty sure those were my exact thoughts when I researched Whole30 about 6 months ago. As soon as I read no wine for 30 days... i was thinking "F that". But a friend a work started doing it and had awesome results - not just physically but also mentally, emotionally, etc. And I was intrigued. She kept saying "if I can do this...you can too". I figured what the hell....let me give this a whirl. And here I am at Day 20.
Not sure if you caught this above so let me repeat...NO ALCOHOL PEOPLE! That has been a doozy for me and really the biggest hurdle considering wine flows through my veins. Not gonna lie...I cannot wait to have a glass of pinot grigio. Cannot. Wait. But... it has also been nice to take a break. Keeping it real here....wine had become my go to the past year for pretty much every emotion.
Happy? Let's celebrate with a bottle!
Stressful day at work? Let me numb out with some vino.
Sad about the muffin top explosion over my skinny jeans? Wine to the rescue.
Girls night out? I will take 2 bottles please, yes I said 2 and yes they are both for me. F off and thank you.
The weather is above 60 degrees? Patio Grigio!
Oh it's Tuesday you say? Pop the bubbly.
You get the idea. My wine intake was becoming a bit of a bad habit. I was up for the challenge of no alcohol for 30 days but, not going to lie I was a bit skeptical if I could do it. Happy to report that so far... so good. I have discovered Kombucha which is fermented tea and tastes a lot like a sour beer. It is "compliant" on Whole30 as it has a ton of probiotics & healthy shit in there for you. There is some sugar but it is used in the fermentation process so... it's cool (and don't think I haven't tried to justify in my head that should mean that wine is ok too as it is just some fermented grapes & sugar....but i digress). It has been nice to take a break and realize maybe I don't need wine rehab just yet.
I have been spending a lot of time in the kitchen but...I was doing that already. I love to cook & meal prep so I think that has helped make the past 20 days a bit easier. I also love pretty much all veggies & love to try new things. If you don't like to cook or, if you have a life where you travel a lot or are on the go a lot - I think it would be a bit more challenging. But so far... it really has not been too bad. It also helps that my hubs has been very supportive and for the most part has been a good sport about trying new dishes & eating more veggies (mushroom pork meatballs - I'm talking about you). We have only been out to eat twice in the past 20 days. That is HUGE for us as we live in a neighborhood with tons of bars and restaurants within walking distance and.... we both LOVE to indulge in said bars and restaurants. It has been nice to step back and get some perspective. It's not a good idea for MANY reasons to eat out pretty much Thursday through Sunday. It's been fun hanging at home together more....and better on the bank account too.
So there you have it.... my life the past 20 days has basically been broccoli, eggs, reading food labels, cooking and chopping up shit & relaxing with Kombucha. Hippy Dippy. And i think i kinda love it! More on my Whole30 adventure, my ongoing love/hate affair with running & my possible venture into Kombucha home brewing to come.....
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Things are looking up!
Oh the difference a week can make! Exactly one week ago I was feeling terrible... I went to work last Wednesday and as I was driving in, I kept having 3 second dizzy spells where I felt like things were spinning and I was about to pass out. Then I would snap into clarity and feel fine - such a bizarre feeling. I managed to walk up two flights of stairs (would have been a great day to take the elevator... stubborn I know) and as soon as I put my laptop bag down I felt like I was going to pass out. I thought hmmm maybe I just need to get something in my system. I walked over to our cafe across the atrium and bumped into 2 of my peers. "Good Morning! Hey what's up! How are you feeling?"...I turned around to answer and just burst into tears.....ugh not good!
After sitting down for a few minutes in my boss's office - decided it was best if I go home to get some rest... something was not right but I didn't know what. "Yes I feel bad but good enough to drive....No I am not dizzy"....totally lying through my teeth but I honestly just wanted to get home and lay down.
As soon as I got home (after driving the exact speed limit in the far right lane with the plan to pull hard to the right if I passed out - again stubborn ass I know) I immediately text my boss that I got home safe, laid down on the couch and passed out for about 3 hours of solid sleep. Pure exhaustion like I have never felt before. Awful. I thought for sure my heart issues and fib had spiraled out of control and thank god I was going in for another cardioversion the next day. I was worried and so upset that this was happening. I mean shit, I was running my ass off and feeling great 6 months ago...WTF!
Fast forward to the next day and after multiple EKGs it was determined that my heart is in normal sinus rhythm - YAY! no getting shocked under anesthesia today - YAY! The medication was working but....working a little too well as my heart rate was very very low (like in the 30s/40s) with very low blood pressure which was causing me to feel so terrible, so exhausted & zombified.... my blood was not being pumped efficiently through my body which is why I felt so dizzy and weird. My cardiologist adjusted some of my meds and cut the amount of Metoprolol in half (beta blocker that affects my heart rate and circulation). It has been a week since that has happened and I feel a million times better!
I have even started working out again - 30 minutes on the elliptical and light weights - and I feel so much damn better! I cannot stress how happy this makes me :)
So the plan is for me to follow up next Friday (happy St Patricks Day to me) and see how things are going - more EKGs to see if I am still in normal sinus rhythm and see how my heart rate is doing and if my medication needs adjusting again. I am hoping to continue to lessen my meds on this journey and take as little as possible.
But for now - I will take what I can get and am feeling very happy that I am feeling so much better and stronger and able to get some exercise back in my life.
On another note - I have rejoined weight watchers to get more accountable with my nutrition - it is going well, I have lost about 8 lbs so far. I was worried my meds would slow down my weight loss but I've decided to just do the best I can with what I've got right now - making better choices and getting in workouts when I feel up to it and hoping I will continue to see slow and steady losses and the scale go down. More to come on that journey of course!
Thursday, February 23, 2017
quick update on the heart
Quick update - I followed up with my cardiologist yesterday & still very good news that my heart is healthy and good blood pressure, etc. However, still in a-fib so my heart is beating irregularly despite the medication.
So.... his recommendation is to increase the dosage on the meds and do another cardioversion next week. This one will be a smudge easier and they will not have to stick a probe down my throat to make sure there are no clots or blockages in my heart - did I leave that detail out last time? Yep that was fun! Actually it was not that bad as I was already out so - really have no recollection of it. Anyway - they can forego that step this time around as we know my heart is healthy.
So increasing the dosage on my meds and another cardioversion - if that does not work, we will move forward to the next procedure. But I am hopeful that this works!
He also gave me the go ahead to start working out regularly - no running yet but - I can at least get on the elliptical regularly - yay! OK little secret, I started working out this past week anyway. I just feel less stressed out & more "myself" when I get a few cardio sessions in during the week. Exercise really is the best therapy for me. Plus I went through all my workout gear and organized it and came to the conclusion.... I have a shit ton of workout clothes! Note to self.... do not buy another pair of running leggings ;) I guess I need to cancel my Fabletics subscription haha!
Me after my first workout in months.... trust, I am smiling on the inside here! I'm just staying in character with my Smiths t-shirt ;)
OK I am off to tidy up the house - I have 2 girlfriends coming in from ATL for Mardi Gras this weekend.... will be a different experience for me this year as I am not really drinking much these days outside of a random glass of red wine here or there. Looking forward to spending some time with my girlfriends! Laissez bon temps rouler & I will update next week post procedure!
So.... his recommendation is to increase the dosage on the meds and do another cardioversion next week. This one will be a smudge easier and they will not have to stick a probe down my throat to make sure there are no clots or blockages in my heart - did I leave that detail out last time? Yep that was fun! Actually it was not that bad as I was already out so - really have no recollection of it. Anyway - they can forego that step this time around as we know my heart is healthy.
So increasing the dosage on my meds and another cardioversion - if that does not work, we will move forward to the next procedure. But I am hopeful that this works!
He also gave me the go ahead to start working out regularly - no running yet but - I can at least get on the elliptical regularly - yay! OK little secret, I started working out this past week anyway. I just feel less stressed out & more "myself" when I get a few cardio sessions in during the week. Exercise really is the best therapy for me. Plus I went through all my workout gear and organized it and came to the conclusion.... I have a shit ton of workout clothes! Note to self.... do not buy another pair of running leggings ;) I guess I need to cancel my Fabletics subscription haha!
Me after my first workout in months.... trust, I am smiling on the inside here! I'm just staying in character with my Smiths t-shirt ;)
OK I am off to tidy up the house - I have 2 girlfriends coming in from ATL for Mardi Gras this weekend.... will be a different experience for me this year as I am not really drinking much these days outside of a random glass of red wine here or there. Looking forward to spending some time with my girlfriends! Laissez bon temps rouler & I will update next week post procedure!
Wednesday, February 8, 2017
Stress Test - heart update!
So the good news is that my heart is healthy....the bad news is that I am back in A-fib again :(
This means that although the cardioversion did work temporarily, my heart has gone back to beating irregularly on it's own. Again. Joy.
I had a nuclear stress test done on Monday which is where they hook me up to wires and electrodes and do an EKG while I am at rest and while I am on the treadmill walking and then walking FAST. Oh and they inject something (gee i should probably know what this IS) into my IV while I am on the treadmill and tell me to go as fast as I can for 3 minutes. And wow.... those 3 minutes sucked. My heart rate got up to 227 - yikes! I have not been exercising or running at all since my knee injury and, since my Afib I have not been active at all. It was so frustrating to me to think that 6 months ago I was running 6, 7, 8 miles and feeling awesome. Now.... 3 minutes, not 3 miles, and I am ready to die. Poor choice of words :)
After the treadmill, I got to lay down for about an hour while they took photos of my heart to see how the exercise - aka stress - impacted it. That was the best part ever. The nurses said I may feel claustrophobic from the machine used to take the photos but honestly, I was so damn tired I just shut my eyes and slept.
So this whole process took about 4 hours - I then promptly came home and slept on the couch after eating 2 huge ass bowls of golden grahams and a brownie. Stress test = stress eating.
Great news though - my cardiologist called me yesterday and let me know that the stress test results were very good. My heart is healthy and normal, no blockages or other bad things. They just cannot figure out why - since all my other blood work checks out - this a-fib is happening to me. And they may never figure out why.
So.... from this point, I will continue to take meds to see if they can control it - I am currently on 3 meds for this that I take 2x per day. I told my husband I need a pill box to keep up. Here is what my morning meds are looking like these days....
there is a sprinkling of vitamin c, multi vitamins, probiotics, synthroid, etc in there but DAMN.... that is way too many pills.
I told my cardiologist from the beginning of this ordeal that I want to avoid having to take any serious meds unless this is the absolute last resort. I don't want to have to deal with nasty side-effects and it just seems weird to have to take 6 pills a day for my heart at 41. And what are the long term effects of taking medication for the next 40 years??
Plus - I don't think the meds are working as I am still getting winded, feeling dizzy and have an elevated heart rate just walking from my car into my office and up 2 flights of stairs everyday. I guess I should take the elevator but...I am stubborn.
Wow I am starting to sound like the grumpy ass old men that were there for stress tests the same day as me. These guys were bitching and complaining all morning. I had to laugh.
So - what is next? I have a follow up with my cardiologist in 2 weeks. I feel confident that he is going to recommend a cardiac ablation where they use a catheter to go through a vein and to my heart. The catheter has some type of electrode that creates heat and destroys the heart tissue that is causing the a-fib. This sounds so complicated and scary but - it is actually a very safe and minimally invasive procedure. I will only have to be in the hospital a day and will likely only need a week of downtime to fully recover. And that is mainly due to the catheter, not my heart.
I am not 100% this is what the doctor will recommend but, he has mentioned the procedure to me and wanted me to research it and - given my frustration and lack of responsiveness to the current meds - I am thinking this is the next best option.
Honestly, I am feeling frustrated and just wanting to get back to feeling normal. I want to run and exercise again. But - trying to keep perspective and not whine and feel sorry for myself - it could be so much worse!
I will continue to update on here as it is easier to direct everyone here for updates versus having the same text/convo 10 times. Although i am very appreciative of everyone that is checking up on me - thank you XO! Maybe I will start to blog about more light hearted topics again. Ha - see what I did there?!?
Still a nerd at heart. lol.
Tuesday, January 31, 2017
I am alive...sorta
Well it is safe to say i have lost my blogging mojo. I can remember when i used to blog almost daily - at a minimum a couple times a week! Not so much lately.
Lots going on since I last blogged...the holidays flew by in a whirlwind! I still can't believe Christmas is over and the Easter candy is already out at the stores - I am trying to make a conscious effort to s-l-o-w the F down and enjoy life more but damn...here we are on the eve of February and I find myself wondering where January went!
So a little catch up... I hurt my back a bit in early January. I was doing something extremely physical and demanding.... I was at yoga focusing on holding my scorpion pose oh so perfectly still.
Ha. No...I wish :(
In actuality, I was in my car and turned to look behind me. Because you know, turning around is physically fucking taxing. WTF?? How do you pull your back out TURNING around??
Anyway - I turned and felt the muscles in my middle back tighten up and it progressively got worse as the day went on. I was in excrutiating pain by the end of the day. It was the oddest sensation - every time i moved an arm or a leg or really anything...I could feel the muscles around my middle back tighten up around my spine like a boa constrictor. Weird analogy but, it is the only way I can accurately describe it. So weird and so painful.
It took a few weeks of taking it easy and self medicating with left over oxycontin i found in our hall closet. Classy, right? Yep lame i know but i did NOT want to drag myself to the doctor and hear some bad news. And I am stubborn as hell. Thankfully my pain has resolved and I am good to go. And I slept REALLY awesome on the oxycontin. I can see why people can get addicted to that stuff - kinda scary. I was a little relieved when I took the last one - that's all i need is to add oxycontin to my list of bad habits!
So - back pain is gone and I am ready to get serious about working out again and BOOM.... cold, which I thought was the flu, which I overmedicated on Mucinex, which apparently threw my heart for a curveball & long story short...ended up with a diagnosis of a-fib or atrial fibrillation - basically my heart beats wildly and out of rhythm, blood does not properly leave my heart and thus increasing my chance for stroking out. Nice.
I had a procedure last week where they put me under anesthesia and shocked my heart back to normal. My cardiologist (omg i still can't believe i have a cardiologist - ugh) is very puzzled as I am "young" for this to randomly show up and otherwise very healthy - thank god. I follow up with him tomorrow to find out if my heart is still beating normally or, it I have digressed back into a-fib.
Honestly, it is hard for me to tell as I was basically asymptomatic before. I just thought I was tired. Or needed to get back in the gym. Or eating like shit. Or drinking all the wine. Or taking all the oxy. Which yeah I am sure that was great for my heart now come to think of it. Or all of that, all at once.
Anyway - I will find out more tomorrow. Until them I am at a minimum on heart meds & blood thinners for the next 6 weeks to lower my chances of stroking out and.....have a nice burn mark on my chest from where they shocked me. It is kinda the shape of Georgia... which is really not the look I am going for here.
Looking at this picture now (taken day after my procedure) I can say it has improved. Thank you coconut oil.
And so.... going through this somewhat hellish/stressful January has made me realize I need to take really good care of myself and get right in my head and heart. See what i did there? And right in my skinny jeans. Time to refocus and get real. More on that to come..... and I promise I will try to blog again before three months fly by again :)
Lots going on since I last blogged...the holidays flew by in a whirlwind! I still can't believe Christmas is over and the Easter candy is already out at the stores - I am trying to make a conscious effort to s-l-o-w the F down and enjoy life more but damn...here we are on the eve of February and I find myself wondering where January went!
So a little catch up... I hurt my back a bit in early January. I was doing something extremely physical and demanding.... I was at yoga focusing on holding my scorpion pose oh so perfectly still.
Ha. No...I wish :(
In actuality, I was in my car and turned to look behind me. Because you know, turning around is physically fucking taxing. WTF?? How do you pull your back out TURNING around??
Anyway - I turned and felt the muscles in my middle back tighten up and it progressively got worse as the day went on. I was in excrutiating pain by the end of the day. It was the oddest sensation - every time i moved an arm or a leg or really anything...I could feel the muscles around my middle back tighten up around my spine like a boa constrictor. Weird analogy but, it is the only way I can accurately describe it. So weird and so painful.
It took a few weeks of taking it easy and self medicating with left over oxycontin i found in our hall closet. Classy, right? Yep lame i know but i did NOT want to drag myself to the doctor and hear some bad news. And I am stubborn as hell. Thankfully my pain has resolved and I am good to go. And I slept REALLY awesome on the oxycontin. I can see why people can get addicted to that stuff - kinda scary. I was a little relieved when I took the last one - that's all i need is to add oxycontin to my list of bad habits!
So - back pain is gone and I am ready to get serious about working out again and BOOM.... cold, which I thought was the flu, which I overmedicated on Mucinex, which apparently threw my heart for a curveball & long story short...ended up with a diagnosis of a-fib or atrial fibrillation - basically my heart beats wildly and out of rhythm, blood does not properly leave my heart and thus increasing my chance for stroking out. Nice.
I had a procedure last week where they put me under anesthesia and shocked my heart back to normal. My cardiologist (omg i still can't believe i have a cardiologist - ugh) is very puzzled as I am "young" for this to randomly show up and otherwise very healthy - thank god. I follow up with him tomorrow to find out if my heart is still beating normally or, it I have digressed back into a-fib.
Honestly, it is hard for me to tell as I was basically asymptomatic before. I just thought I was tired. Or needed to get back in the gym. Or eating like shit. Or drinking all the wine. Or taking all the oxy. Which yeah I am sure that was great for my heart now come to think of it. Or all of that, all at once.
Anyway - I will find out more tomorrow. Until them I am at a minimum on heart meds & blood thinners for the next 6 weeks to lower my chances of stroking out and.....have a nice burn mark on my chest from where they shocked me. It is kinda the shape of Georgia... which is really not the look I am going for here.
Looking at this picture now (taken day after my procedure) I can say it has improved. Thank you coconut oil.
And so.... going through this somewhat hellish/stressful January has made me realize I need to take really good care of myself and get right in my head and heart. See what i did there? And right in my skinny jeans. Time to refocus and get real. More on that to come..... and I promise I will try to blog again before three months fly by again :)
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